Death & Despair

I think often
Of death, despair
Always around
This morbid pair

I think of them
In the dappled sunlight
As people around bustle
Upbeat & bright
I think of them
Under glossy moonlight
As them lovers sigh
And the poets write
I think of them
As a rainbow smiles
Lighting up the skies
For miles & miles
I think of them
Eating cake no less
It makes me mad
I must confess

They're always there
Whispering in my ear
Reminding me
Of things to fear
Of lives gone awry
In a second or two
Of things uncontrolled
That could happen to you

As I shut my eyes
And lock these cares within
I think of the futility
Of this human thing

This thing we have going
Where we long & yearn
Day in and out
We tumble & churn
We naively think
Our problems matter
A job, a fight
Some mindless chatter

And maybe they mean well
My terrible twins
They remind me to look
For happiness, for wins
They tell me to rise
To count & treasure
Everything that I have
In abundant measure

So I count on my fingers
I count on my toes
And I find my joys
Far surpass my woes

And I thank you death
You too, despair
I thank this sad wisdom
That brings cheer to my lair

Iss mod se jaate hain..

I feel like a clown
Juggling hats in a ring
And I suck
As do clowns I think
(only they on purpose)

My hats are unique
Not just any old
They have magical powers
Such is their hold

Such is their hold
That as I put one on
It changes me
Switches my song

See, one is all sense
A surrendering of sorts
It rides with the tides
Makes friends with them warts

The other's a general
Marching in time
Even shadows fear to lurk
Beauty is a crime

Both originate in a dot
And go their separate ways
Two roads in a yellow wood
As the poet says

One paved with purpose
The other an end in itself
I do have to travel both
Both reflections of myself

But as I gaze upon the mirror
I think I'm all mankind
For who isn't a conflict
Layers intertwined
Layers of cotton & gold
Of gossamer & grime
Each makes the other better
And the whole so sublime

And thus have I convinced
Myself of being all right
Is that a dreamer's delusion
Or the general's might ?