Life..

It has been quite some time since I blogged..I have come a long way, life as I knew it has changed completely..

I have been at IIM Bangalore for more than a couple of months..I have learnt a lot of things and unlearnt some things..it's anybody's guess which was more difficult..

The life here is unbelievable..the pressure exists because people exist who can take it..I will not trivialize it by talking about it..we all know about the spate of quizzes and tests etc..

The people..now that's key..so many talented, intelligent, complicated people bottled up at such close quarters..people who have it all, and nobody will be surprised to see them transform into super-successful hot-shots some years down the line..the differentiating factor is that we all know each other, we can all tell you what a person's strengths are, where he lacks, and where he pretends to lack..

Short-term has a whole different meaning..life in a B school is like a microcosm of life outside..a nebula, dense and concentrated..a miniature capsule of life..it has every emotion - doubt, fear, envy, greed, hunger, agony, ecstasy, love, hate, passion, indifference..all within an area of 12 hostel blocks..

People hide, but are also ironically open about their feelings..people are super-competitive, and sometimes also go out of their way to help you..there are all kinds, and opinions about them change in an inkling..

I have learnt that I am nothing, I have unlearnt that I donot need anybody..I have learnt the true meaning of being down but not out - never out..I have learnt that I have it..inspite of the bad grades, the self-doubts and fears..I have confidence..these two years are going to teach me a lot..and I donot mean Quant and FinAcc..the girl who walks out of these grey walls is going to be very different from the girl who had stepped in..that fateful day in June..I have already vanquished some of my 'inner demons'..I feel like a better person already..

I have re-invented myself..the crux has evolved, not changed, but the outer layer has taken on dimensions that were not there before..any change is welcome..evolution is always good..

On the whole, the experience has been fantabulous and interesting beyond imagination and nothing could even come close..the best of times..the worst of times..